I’m definitely not the first to say life doesn’t always go to plan (and I’m sure I won’t be the last) but I know that it can suck when life doesn’t seem to want to do what you want.
I was so set on how I wanted next year to go and now it seems I have to change plans again. If all had gone my way, I’d start studying acting full time at the top acting school in Melbourne but sadly this year wasn’t my year. Instead of just moping until auditions for the 2018 intake I’m going to make the most of my spare time.
Next year I’m going to do more acting masterclasses to try out a bunch of different styles, I’m going to work on getting more roles in shows/short films, I’m going to go see shows at smaller theatre companies and I’m going to get fitter. I’m going to make myself a better actor so the next time I audition I can show I’ve grown.
I desperately want to get into this school and I’ll keep trying to but I’ve realised that I can’t put my life on hold for it. I want to act so I’ll just have to work harder to get those opportunities and if along the way, I get into the school then I’ll be thrilled! But each year I want to be growing and developing rather than putting all my hopes into one pathway.
The thing is, I don’t want to limit myself by saying I’ll only be satisfied if this happens because I’ve had knockbacks before and it just made me that much more grateful when I finally achieved what I wanted. So yes, I may have cried about not getting in which is fine to do. But now, I’m going to make the most of the year ahead because I know if I keep honing in on my craft people are bound to see it.
I’m unsure about what next year is going to be like…but that’s exciting because it has so much potential.